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Friday, March 28, 2008
"Mama, I will remember this day forever."
Ah, sweet music to my ears. "Mama, I will remember this day forever." This is what my 3 1/2 y/o dd said to me as we neared our house on our way home from a short walk in our neighborhood at the end of the day. We encountered a small hail storm and caught some on our hands and tasted it. She noticed grass growing out of the sidewalk and mentioned that it's "evergreen" and that many of the "dredgerous" (aka deciduous) trees are still bare in this early part of Spring.
We had a "yes" day today, a lazy home day with room for spontaneity. Hurrah for yes days. We woke up to a beautiful snowfall, which is quite rare this late in March in Portland, OR. I had the day off after opting not to go on a trip to Breitenbush a couple of days ago (all signs pointed me in the direction of not going, so on my way there I turned around and decided to come back home...long story of a tiring day, which I may tell another time). My dd chose to stay home with me today instead of going to preschool. I was looking forward to a day of not having to go anywhere or do anything except the usual stuff at home. Turns out I needed to make an emergency bank deposit so we set out on an adventure in our roles as Zuwabe (dd as a baby girl puppy) and Zoozoo (me as Zuwabe's big sister). Zuwabe got to wear her snow suit sans clothes underneath and take snacks for the car ride. How wonderful to be able to go at our own pace and let go of having to be somewhere at a certain time and to joyfully participate together in play throughout our outing. After the stop at the bank machine, we visited Kitchen Kaboodle to buy a souffle pan. We wanted to try out a new blueberry upside down cake. Yummy. Zuwabe and Zoozoo had great fun making the cake and eating it.
Last night Zuwabe woke up in the night and I brought her into our bed. She was crying and said, "I miss my great Papa, your daddy". I wonder if Papa T visited her in her dreamtime. She has been talking about him quite a bit lately. He's been gone a year and half now. I miss him so much too. She talked about him again today. "I have memories, Mama. I remember your daddy and I miss him." "What do you remember, honey?" "I remember when he came to our house." I remind her that one of the last things he said to me was, "Tell Indigo that Papa Terry loves her very much." I did tell her and I will keep telling her and she knows. She loves you too and misses you deeply. You live on in her and in me and we are so grateful. Indigo was 2 when Papa died. Some days my heart longs to share her magical presence with him but I know he is with us and is so happy for me.
I was getting tired as it neared her bedtime and losing patience. My tone shifted and she called me on it as usual, "Mama, just be peaceful, you need to be gentle with baby puppies." We called her buddha baby on her first day after being born. She is gentle and sweet and peaceful and fills the world with unconditional love. I have much to learn from this gentle spirit who has graced us with her beautiful presence. I am learning about true love.
I too will remember this day forever, my dear one.
We had a "yes" day today, a lazy home day with room for spontaneity. Hurrah for yes days. We woke up to a beautiful snowfall, which is quite rare this late in March in Portland, OR. I had the day off after opting not to go on a trip to Breitenbush a couple of days ago (all signs pointed me in the direction of not going, so on my way there I turned around and decided to come back home...long story of a tiring day, which I may tell another time). My dd chose to stay home with me today instead of going to preschool. I was looking forward to a day of not having to go anywhere or do anything except the usual stuff at home. Turns out I needed to make an emergency bank deposit so we set out on an adventure in our roles as Zuwabe (dd as a baby girl puppy) and Zoozoo (me as Zuwabe's big sister). Zuwabe got to wear her snow suit sans clothes underneath and take snacks for the car ride. How wonderful to be able to go at our own pace and let go of having to be somewhere at a certain time and to joyfully participate together in play throughout our outing. After the stop at the bank machine, we visited Kitchen Kaboodle to buy a souffle pan. We wanted to try out a new blueberry upside down cake. Yummy. Zuwabe and Zoozoo had great fun making the cake and eating it.
Last night Zuwabe woke up in the night and I brought her into our bed. She was crying and said, "I miss my great Papa, your daddy". I wonder if Papa T visited her in her dreamtime. She has been talking about him quite a bit lately. He's been gone a year and half now. I miss him so much too. She talked about him again today. "I have memories, Mama. I remember your daddy and I miss him." "What do you remember, honey?" "I remember when he came to our house." I remind her that one of the last things he said to me was, "Tell Indigo that Papa Terry loves her very much." I did tell her and I will keep telling her and she knows. She loves you too and misses you deeply. You live on in her and in me and we are so grateful. Indigo was 2 when Papa died. Some days my heart longs to share her magical presence with him but I know he is with us and is so happy for me.
I was getting tired as it neared her bedtime and losing patience. My tone shifted and she called me on it as usual, "Mama, just be peaceful, you need to be gentle with baby puppies." We called her buddha baby on her first day after being born. She is gentle and sweet and peaceful and fills the world with unconditional love. I have much to learn from this gentle spirit who has graced us with her beautiful presence. I am learning about true love.
I too will remember this day forever, my dear one.
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