Where I was on this day 6 years ago . . .

Six years ago today I was losing a baby . . . unbelievably painful and life-threatening ectopic pregnancy rupture at Providence Portland Medical Center.

I find myself teary today and not knowing why . . . grief . . . a familiar feeling, but what is it? I am sitting at my desk at PPMC and I remember I was within these walls 6 years ago today, losing my baby and a part of me (my left fallopian tube) and having my own life saved. I had a spiritual, near death (near life?) experience that day that has stayed deeply within me. It was the most peaceful moment of my life within one of the most traumatic moments of my life. Was it the moment my baby's spirit was leaving me and moving on to the next part of her journey, was it the moment my guides/angels surrounded me and gave me strength to go on in this life, was it all of this and more wrapped up into one?

A couple of days later I was lying in my hospital bed watching HUGE snowflakes fall (in March in Portland!). The snowflakes were a peaceful symbol of hope for me.

I will tell more of this story another time.

It's amazing how these cellular memories can bubble up on calendar anniversary dates.

My first blog!!

This is my first blog. Woohoo!! I love communication, writing, technology and stories so why not create a blog? Here goes!